I posted on FB that "when it rains, it pours". Vague, I know, but totally our lives right now. It's not really surprise to anyone reading this, but I want to record my thoughts right now, as I don't know what turns life will take soon. Hopefully they will be positive ones.
I am undergoing surgery this week to attempt to fix some issues that developed from my pregancies and my hemmorhage. I don't look forward to the attempt, or to the possibility of a hysterectomy, but I will be happy to feel better, lose my tenderness, and not wonder anymore. I am so blessed that I was ready to be finished with children; now I have no choice! I am not happy with the thought of having to probably end my breastfeeding with Nolan, but the freedom will be nice. No more restricted diets! Yay!!
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I am heavy in mind with my mom right now. The boys and I went to visit this weekend, and had a great time with Mom, Dad, Debbie, Jenny, and Dylan. Mom has been in the hospital and at the clinic often these past few weeks as a result of a bad cold and dehydration, and is having extreme weight loss and some potassium problems, along with low blood pressure. She as a CT scan today, and we are bracing ourselves. We have been so blessed, but when I take a minute to let my guard down, I can't help but wonder how much she has to take in this life! I love being with her, but we really have to watch things carefully and never let our guard down. I would never take back the miracle of the last three years, but I do need to say out loud that I miss my mom!!!
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Grandpa and Grayson playing with the Backhoe
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I can't dwell on the negative, as I am really blessed. Summer is winding down in my mind; the school dreams have begun! I have to wait to see what happens with my body before I plan too much, but Nolan and Grayson are at daycare and I am alone - woo-hoo!! Russ is doing well, and coping well with all the stress we've felt lately. We have another senior pic shoot this week, and I look forward to it.
